The Gods Among Us

notbecauseofvictories:

C. DALE YOUNG

One of them grants you the ability

to forecast the future; another wrenches
your tongue from your mouth, changes you
into a bird precisely because you have been
given this gift. The gods are generous

in this way. I learned to avoid danger, avoid fear,
avoid excitement, these the very triggers that prompt
my wings from their resting place deep inside.
And so, I avoided fights, avoided everything really.
In the locker room, I avoided other boys,

all the while intently studying that space
between their shoulder blades, patiently looking
for the tell-tale signs, looking to find even
one other boy like me, the wings buried but
there nonetheless. I studied them from a distance.

When people challenge a god, the gods curse them
with the label of madness. It is all very convenient.
And meanwhile, a god took the form of a swan
and raped a girl by the school gates. Another
took the shape of an eagle to abduct a boy

from the football field. Mad world.
And what about our teachers? Our teachers
expected us to sit and listen. In Theology, there was
a demon inside each of us; in History,
the demons among us. So many demons

in this world. Who among us could have spoken up
against the gods, the gods who continued living
among us? They granted wishes and punishments
much the way they always had. Very few noticed them
casually taking the shape of one thing or another.

A flaking of skin, the
shedding of something no longer
recognisable. Eve becomes the snake or
the snake becomes Eve. Whichever way round
she is freer. She wakes up with dust
in her eyes and calls it love.
Bakes herself on sun-hot rocks
and finds heaven in the healing there.
Hell follows her around (Hell called Man,
Hell called Adam) trying to make
the changing about him.  
Adam demands of God why
he is being punished like this.
Eve finds grace
in the dark cracks between rocks.
Eve finds God in the solitude.
Eve finds absolution
in the red press of her knees / scales
into the dirt.
Eve, unblinking, watches Adam rail. 
Adam demands answers and
Eve / snake / Eve exits the Garden
to go and find them for herself.

The wind never grows old, the sea is ageless. The sun, the sky, are eternal. I gaze out into the distance, at each crest of foam. I think I know what I’ve come in search of. I think I can see inside myself like someone who’s been visited by a dream.

Jean-Marie G. Le Clézio, from The Prospector (Atlantic Books, 2016)