The first time I saw him smile…

xadorkablemarinax:

‘HOLY SHIT HE’S LOST IT!’ my mind screamed.

I swore he began to glow, maybe even brighter than the rays of sun hitting the ground. I guess he was just so happy to be finally free of his pain and responsibility after so long; I cant even imagine what that must feel like. Not a trace of anger on his face, and it stayed that way for what felt like three years all over again, but totally far from boring. It was so unreal and different from what i’ve been used to seeing, I think my heart stopped for a second before I tore myself to look away, and my stomach felt all funny…

 Eh, I think his face just grossed me out or something. Although this is stupid, I couldn’t and still can’t figure out what that feeling is or was… but in that single moment in time, i’ve realized that i’ve never had my breath taken away. “